I was in Kmart with Sanjaybhai and Parulben the evening of Thanksgiving. They were looking for some lighted christmas ornaments to display on their lawn. Christmas carols were in the background. Shoppers were doing some Christmas and Christmas decoration shopping. It was dark and grey outside, warm and cozy inside. And all around, I saw items touted for the perfect Christmas gift for him, her and the the family dog! It really truly left like Christmas. And you know what, I was excited that it felt like Christmas!
If you know me personally, it'll be odd hearing this. I don't celebrate Christmas. I rejoice at not having to struggle over the superficial task of giftgiving. I don't do trees or lights. But yet hearing the carols and seeing the local folk prepare for the holiday season, it felt so right and perfect.
Then Friday night, we had flurries in Knoxville. When I left work late at night, there was a fair amount of white dusting on the pavement and on my car. It heralded the promise of what may be a white Christmas.
I don't think I've been excited over this holiday in a long time. Back in Z., during Christmastime, students at Lechwe would hold a recital at a church where we sing carols and read aloud from the Bible. Being in school and learning carols and wearing white afghans with red ruffles made the holiday seem more special, despite the fact that there was no snow or cold weather. We'd do crafts in school and make our own Christmas cards we'd reenact the nativity for assembly. We were celebrating the essence of Christmas without commercializing it. Granted shopping for Christmas in Z. may have been the reason why.
But I would get excited then. Maybe just because the Christmas holidays would be upon us soon and I'd have three glorious weeks of no homework. Whatever the reason, I'm glad I've regained this sense of spirit about the holiday. And I'm even more glad that I can enjoy this spirit without getting caught in the trappings of what a modern-day Christmas should entail.
Posted by Jigsha at 12/01/2003 01:44:00 PM | link to entry |